I am doing better.

We had our second marriage counseling with our pastor last night. fun stuff. :)

I've lost 6lbs so far since jan 1. I've been eating soooo much better and going to the gym like crazy (well this week only once). and no it wasn't a new years resolution, its me changing my life. I want to be healthy and fit!

let's see, what else, I'm going home for a weekend feb 16th-18th. My brother michael is getting married and my mom is throwing me a bridal shower, if any of you ladies want to come, feel free! Its on that sunday afternoon in columbus, IN at 2pm. my mom can give you all the info if you email her at susie@momanmedia.com :)

I'm going to the snow this weekend! Tahoe here i come! i'm going tubing not snowboarding this year, rob is snowboarding with his cool board :) i just need a break from it, last year was painful! and since i plan on being super fit by the end of this year i'm sure i'll be more up for it next winter!

well, thats it for now!

mo.

First of all Rob did lots of lying, but its seems to work when trying to throw off the one girl who always figures things out.

For a few days/week Rob had been dropping hints that he was "saving" and i thought this day was going to happen more towards thanksgiving or Christmas. (sneaky) So, for our date night (we have one every week) he suggested that we go take pictures, we have done this before, he likes to encourage my photography! And one of the places was where we had our first kiss, we have gone up there before to take pictures so it wasn't suspicious to me. I awful thing was i really didn't want to go take pictures, but i knew he really wanted to so i went along. When we got up there it was really cold and windy. I took some pictures but i was complaining that i didn't have the right lens. Rob went and put his camera away and said he just wanted to cuddle so he put his arms around me while i was taking pictures (which i appreciated cause it was cold). then i asked him in a complaining voice how long we were going to stay. (i'm such a jerk!) He said "long enough." Then he told me he loved me and said he wanted to ask me a question. he let go of me so i turned around. And there he was getting on one knee pulling out a box and opening it all at the same time! I'm sure my eyes got bigger than they ever have before. He then asked me to be his wife (or as he likes to say wifey). I said "are you for real!!!!!!!!!" then realized this was the moment and quickly said YES. then there were hugs and kisses. and then rob was like "Can i put the ring on your finger now!?" hehe i kinda for got about the ring i was so excited. Well, that is the story of how the man i love asked me and now i get to marry the love of my life. (please don't gag i get to be sappy for this one moment of my life!!!!)

No Rob and i are still together and love each other like the weird kid loves to eat glue!

my physical heart is not doing so well. i thought i'd give an update. cause i have vaugely mention things here and there, but here is the story.

In college i started feeling weird heart beats and drs told me not to worry about it they couldn't hear anything and i was just stress. I moved out to Cali and went to a dr about it they told me it was stress and that i just was very "aware" of my heart beating. So, since no one believed me i decided i would never tell another dr about my conserns about my heart. i was just done with them.

(this part you already know)
a month ago or so i went to the dr about being really light headed. and guess what......She heard it!!!!!!! (i didn't even say anything) they did an EKG and saw weird stuff and had the other two dr come in and listen too. they all thought my heart was very interest and oohh'd ahhh'd over it. i was put on a beta blocker and sent to a cardiologist (Co-dr) to get down to the bottom of all this.

I saw said Co-dr. He said i have a PVC and ordered three tests. I got the Echo Cardio Gram (Sp?) and the Holter monitor soon i will do the stress test. he kept me on the beta blocker, put me on calcuim, magnisum, zinc, told me to up my intake of liquids and wait for the results.

Last night i had a very scary night. my heart woke me up beating the hardest and weirdest it has ever! it freaked me out so bad i started crying and called rob. he offered to take me to the hospital. but i finnally got back to bed for a really bad night of sleep. i called the Co-dr today and almost started crying to the office manager (shes really sweet). they up the dose of my beta blocker and told me NO caffinee! (i think thats what did it) and that i really had to take everything, every day, every dose! So i'm still waiting for the results of all the test and find out what they are going to do about my heart.

so essentially my heart has bad rhythm!

so yeah thats the full story!